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fallen
sarah mclachlan

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

last year ko pa gusto mag-invest sa equity fund. pero napurnada yun dahil nagkasakit ako at bum for 5 months. ngayong medyo nakabawi na, tuloy ang pagpapayaman! hehehe! kanina nakapag-open na ako ng account sa equity fund. tapos a few weeks ago, ni-transfer ko yung bond fund ko sa balanced fund. balak ko this week or next, kunin ko na yung pera ko sa money market fund and transfer it to a more risky investment. siguro ililipat ko rin yun sa balanced, equity, or even directly sa stocks. i am done testing the waters and now (i guess i am) ready to take a dive into more risky environment. hopefully, the risk i take now will pay off someday. 

bumili ako ng aircon para sa kwarto ng magulang ko. isa akong mabait na anak. wehehe! pero dahil panggabi ang pasok ko sa trabaho, makikitulog ako dun sa araw. wahaha!

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today, i received two very tempting job opportunities from two very good friends. both packages are a lot better than what i am receiving right now. hindi ko na naman alam ang gagawin ko.. naisip ko na dati pa na i will stay muna sa company na pinapasukan ko ngayon habang nagpapagaling ng matang hindi pa rin sure na gagaling (but still hoping). sobrang haba na rin kasi ng listahan ng companies sa resume ko. five companies in less than four years. tapos may verbal agreement na rin kami ng boss ko na mag-eextend ako after ng expiration ng contract ko this april. wala pa ko final decision. but i am more inclined to stay. hopefully i am making the right decision. or am i?

habang nasa fx papasok sa opisina, pinatugtog ng driver yung ultraelectromagneticjam album. tapos narinig ko si kitchie nadal na kumakanta ng ligaya. pagdating sa linyang...

ilang ahit pa ba ang aahitin, o giliw koooo...

napaisip ako, ano kayang inaahit ni kitchie?

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